I was so proud of myself these past few days/week because I planned a pretty sweet date night for Brian and I tomorrow. I had the baby sitter set and reservations made and it was going to be grand. Then, Brian tells me that they [his family] changed days on looking at cabins up north and made plans for Saturday. DANG!! So, plans were cancelled for Saturday. Brian and I haven't had a date night in forever and I really wish once we could actually go out when planned. But, yet again [and yes, this is me venting - we put ourselves/relationship on hold to satisfy others.] **Insert sad face**
Ok, so I plan everything for Friday. I'm able to move my reservation and every thing was going to work out. Babysitter was set to come to our house at 1pm and we were gonna be off. Then the usual Friday morning meeting that Brian attends now had to be in the afternoon ... at 1pm. It's no fault of Brian's because I really just wanted to surprise him so he didn't know that I had things ready to go...
Yet another phone call to the baby sitter to say nevermind. I'm deeply saddend and disappointed that all of these surprises I'm trying to create for us are always put on the back burner. Other people come first... for both of us. We like to serve others but I really just want to see/talk to my husband. With the work schedule the way it is, we rarely see each other now anyways.
Next time I really want to be selfish and say "Sorry everyone, but I have a date planned and we are going on it."
But part of me really wants to say "Your lack of planning does not constitute my emergency."
oye... :o(
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