Confession: I don't have many girl friends.

I don't but I want that to change.

I realize that the reason why I do not is because my best friend in high school whom I was extremely close with decided to talk about me behind my back when I was standing right behind her. After that, I was never really fully able to trust another female.

The girls in my small group are amazing though and I appreciate them so much. I love how I know I can trust them but I've realized that I don't really know how to be "girly." What do girls do when they get together? I'm not the hair and make up kind of gal and don't know what I could contribute to something like that.

I cannot tell you the last time I called and talked to a female because I was struggling or I needed something. It has been at least 12 years. Isn't that sad? Oye, I've been learning so much about myself that I want to change and guess I just need to do it. I mean, it isn't rocket science. I have so many people that I am getting to know that I would love to hang out with one on one so I'm just going to have to get over it and do it.

Time to put on my big girl pants...