Confession: A little of this, A little of that.

First, I shall take the plank out of my own eye...

Now, I'm getting uptight about how Brian and I rearrange our schedules for other people all the time. Many times, I do not mind but there are times where it's like, 'can't you see we are always the one changing our schedule?' To think that your time is more precious than ours is a hard pill to swallow. I started this with taking the plank out of my own eye because I know there are times that people need to rearrange their schedules for us. I just wish there was a better balance.

Tonight was the first night that I got to actually see Big Brian. He has been working the last 4 days and I rarely saw him due to our work schedules. It feels nice just to be in the same room with him and not in passing. He is actually kicking some major tail in COD and I enjoy watching him play.

I am learning that I am not a confident person. I was offered $2500 to do a photo shoot for someone and I chickened out. I'm not very confident in my ability. It seems as though when I do take pictures they get compared to other people's and how they are better or they are more 'gifted.' Gosh, I really dislike that word. I am who I am... I take pictures the way I do. I think I have done some good work on couples and babies and maybe a few wedding shots but to me being ok is not good enough to commit to a $2500 job. Instead, I recommended someone else to do it because of my lack of confidence. Dumb Dumb Dumb.

Sometimes I wish we could rewind time... not in the sense of because I want to relive anything but in the sense that I think we are over sensationalized by video games, cell phones, computers, technology in general. What would we do as a society with NO electronics for one week? I can tell you what we would do, we would go crazy! I just feel that many times we get so caught up on what's on tv or who's on the radio or what game is being played on a cell phone that we forget to actually communicate with people around us. To sit down and have a conversation without the distraction of a cell phone would be exquisite. Brian has like a million paid days off this year and I would really like to take a family vaca with no distractions. Just me, him, and the boy. No cell phones [unless for an emergency], no tv, no nothing.

Lots going through my head tonight...can you tell?