I know I shouldn't use definite words like never because I know that one day I will face my fear again but I'm really struggling with one in particular.
I stopped singing a long time ago after being in choir for 4 years and band for 10. I stopped because someone told me that I sounded horrible and that it would do everyone a favor if I stopped. So I did... I stopped singing out loud for 14 years. Well, at a recent worship practice, as in I decided to try it again and have been doing so for a few months now, someone told me that I sounded horrible and that I shouldn't be up there unless I could do it.
Talk about wanting to quit. That person has since apologized but honestly the wound has been uncovered and hit with a big dosage of salt. It sucks. I have lost all confidence to sing and told Pastor that I was no longer on the worship team. Of course he didn't accept that answer but I don't know if I can do it again. I'm trying hard to get over it but it's difficult. I mean, this person could have said, "you were off today" or something nicer... but to say that I sounded horrible and to say it in front of other people is just traumatizing. This has been bothering me for 2 weeks now and I do not know what to do. I know when I'm confident in what I'm doing, I can sing ok... nothing spectacular but did you really have to say "horrible?" I really do want to be done...
Don't quit! Don't let the sinful action of another person keep you from using the gifts God's given you! Satan wins when that happens:( I hate that he (Satan) finds ways to discourage us even within the body of Christ, but we don't let him win. We resist him and he flees!
ReplyDeleteI have truly enjoyed seeing you up there. I remember you mentioned that you didn't sing once and then you were in the choir. I could really hear you and corey sing your part well! then I saw you up there and I though how great!! I wish the same as joylynn
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