Confession: I'm giving up...

There are many reasons why I am going to allow myself to fail/give up when it comes to the worship team. The first of which is that it is extremely hard to try to worship and take care of a child. B team doesn't have child care on it so it's me trying to juggle him and singing and with my wrist going crazy, it's not a good combination. The second of which is I cannot get past the "horrible" comment. All day at practice today, I felt worn down and extremely insecure. I couldn't step past it although I tried several times. I prayed, that didn't help. I tried to get help with B3, that didn't help. I just cannot do it. It's not an encouraging place to be for me anymore and that is truly sad.